October 21, 2011 by Danelle
He held up his shirt to show me the place where the scar would forever be.
Over the belly button.
Where I gave him everything I could those 9 months we were one.
Lifeline between momma and son.
Younger son does this, shows me this scar, during our math lesson today.
We are studying “oblique” lines and we are a fitness and sports minded family.
Vertical lines are easy to remember from basketball.
Sons know what it means to improve their vertical.
It means they are growing and jumping and reaching much higher than before.
So for “oblique” I show them the muscles.
Younger son takes one soft fingertip and traces the place that has healed but never disappeared.
“Around my scar. The obliques are around my scar.”
He is so precious to me.
I ache knowing that God loves me more than I love this son of mine.
I take his head in my hands, nuzzle our heads close and confirm this truth.
Years ago a doctor told me my younger son wasn’t “thriving”.
Born with a mixture of colic, acid reflux and pyloric stenosis.
He had surgery at two months to make his pyloric muscle weaker.
He needed to become weaker to be stronger.
Surgery was a success. Weight began to stick on his body. Food stayed down with medicine for reflux.
But there is truth in scars.
It is a visible sign of the past.
His pyloric muscle, those words from the doctor, the surgery, the scar; they were strangling to a momma’s heart those years ago.
But much time has gone by and I see something different when son is running around with that scar exposed.
The moment that we cut the strength away from all that leads to death, the strongholds that make us die a little each day. . . and we allow the surgery and scars to appear. . .
Right above our lifelines. . .
Moving beyond ourselves.
And today, as younger son moves achingly close to 8 years old I am snapping a picture of his sweet scar.
Son’s scar proof of the surgery that saved him.
May my scars prove the same.
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